I wish I knew what to say...

I have tried to write this post for the last few days, but nothing. I do not know what to say. For the first time in my 34 years of existence. I have nothing to say!

All I have today is a feeling! A feeling of emptiness! Nothingness! A Deep sense of  "I can not do this any-more". I have no tears. I have no advise! I have nothing but my faith! Faith! A faith that I don't know how to describe any more... Faith... How much of faith I am not sure...

But somewhere deep within me I have this little speck of a thing telling me, "God knows, hang in there".

So even thou I have nothing to say, I pray that a faith smaller then a mustard seed will be enough.