Google
says that A prison is, "a building in which people are legally held as a
punishment for a crime they have committed or while awaiting trial."
Sometimes
I think of grieving in term of this. Thou grieving doesn't have physical walls
or bars keeping you captive it certainly claims legal right to punish you and
restrain your movement and capacity. Sometimes I think that it is safer not to
love... for the punishment of love seems to be life in the prison of grief. We
grieve because we love...
So, shall
we rather not love, just to avoid the pain and "punishment" of grief?
I beg not... The reward of love outweighs the darkness of grief any day. Love
always has more light in it, than what grieving can bring. The key, I think, is
to remember love...
And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love.1 Corinthians 13:13 NRSV
I always
have a choice between living the depression of my grief or the joy of the love
I shared with my baby boy. what if that is how we get released from prison...
by filling our lives with love... the love of memories shared, and new moments
created... The challenge is not to try and replace the pain of grief but to
enjoy the moments of love. Love shared is forever! No sorrow, no pain, no
depression, nothing should overwhelm the LOVE we share. For a moment wanted to
say the love we shared, in fact I think I did... BUT I think love should always
be in the present tense.
John (in
the Bible) says that God is love. Scripture teaches me that God is the same
(yesterday, today and tomorrow), which means to me that love is always the
same. My son (Judah) is my son even though he died (WHY DO I STILL FIND IT HARD
TO SAY THAT HE DIED????) so our love is our love no matter what or where.
Everyday
there's an instant or two or three and sometimes ten… that I feel imprisoned by
grief, but love always sets me free. Sometimes it is the loving touch of my
wife (Desiree) or the bright and loud laughter of the kids (Jathni-el and
Jeriah). Other times it is the gentle hello of a caring friend that inquires
"are you ok?" Today it was the realization that God is love.
"...Love
has set me free
Love has
set me free
You're my
rest
The
shelter from the storm
Peace
will come for me
You're my
strength
When I am
weak you are strong
Your hope
will be the song I sing
You're
holding me
You're
everything that I need
You are
rescuing
Your
grace is enough for me
It's all
I need
Love has
set me free
Love has
set me free.."
